Fear (And a Love-Song to a Savior)

I am afraid of many things:
Of eternal loneliness,
of being locked inside four walls
forever.
Never.

I heard once that fear is just
the idea of having to do something without You.
Jesus, Your Presence
flushes out fear,
Your Perfect Love
drives it out
the way Your righteous-rage
drove out the money-makers.
Any takers?
I am feeling lonely again,
yet on the mend,
and I swear I will see Your Face.

Let the moon dip down, into the black sky,
let stars sparkle underneath Heaven’s white light.
So many of us feel lonely, tonight.
Jesus,
won’t You
enter the room,
change the moods of many hearts
stuck in the dark?
Let Your Love, Your Love
shine like that moon in the darkness–
no, better,
like the sun in the morning sky.
Please let the Paper boy
bring me news of Your Unfailing Love–
I need it to survive.

Please, let the early dawn bring me
the fuzzy warmth of my cat, pawing at
me (I love/hate how he does that),
the annoying panic of my dog
and the beckoning of Your Song
to “come away with You” again.

You seem to be my only friend.
In a place like this,
Is that enough?
I know the Sunday-school children may shout “Yes,”
and I should never have any hesitance.
But I do.

Won’t You
make it all loud and clear?
Like the rooster at 8am
telling me to get up, ascend.
Like a His whisper on the phone:
“Good Morning, Beautiful.”
Only Better.
From the Artist Himself?

I am acting like You do not already do this.
The way the moon kisses the stars
and even the haze gives perfect light.
And did you make that sunset just for me?
I swear You did–
those are my favorite colors.

How LOVED I am, by You!
It swirls around,
completely surrounds!
Where can fear fit in
When my God is wooing
Whispering,
Calling me out, again?
It cannot,
does not exist,
in the Presence of Your Love.
It’s physics– or maybe chemistry–

The way you do this to me.
My Father, My Friend,
Hold me in Your Arms, again–
Let me never be
So much-afraid.
Dedicated to Grandpa.
Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.” (Psalm 143:8, ESV)

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Author: bringbackhisgirls

I am a young lover of the Truth-- the Lord Jesus Christ. Slowly but very surely, the Lord has shown me tender mercy, strength, salvation, and a completely redeemed life. Though never abused or mistreated by others myself, the name "Hephzibah" (Isaiah 62:4) is something I've always struggled to claim for myself as my name, never believing that Christ, that God, could actually cherish me as His bride, His beloved and delighted-in daughter. Ties to bondage, self-condemnation, and self-hatred come easily to me... until I realize that He has done what Isaiah 62 so beautifully describes: He's dressed me up like a bride, given me fame and honor among the nations (people), and given me a brand new name: No longer desolate, but "My delight is in her." I live now to show others the beauty of God's good grace and the power of His redemption through His son, Jesus Christ, letting others know-- especially those who've been abused or mistreated-- that the Lord desires to call them by this name and bring them into a right relationship with Him also. Micah 6:8. "No, the Lord has told us what is good. What he requires of us is this: to do what is just, to show constant love, and to live in humble fellowship with our God." (God's Word Translation) James 1:6-8. "But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do." (NIV Translation) And, my verse (passage) of the year: "Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, because he has come to His people and redeemed them. He has raised up a horn of salvation for us in the house of His servant David (as he said through his holy prophets of long ago), salvation from our enemies and from the hand of all who hate us— to show mercy to our ancestors and to remember His holy covenant, the oath He swore to our father Abraham: to rescue us from the hand of our enemies, and to enable us to serve him without fear in holiness and righteousness before him all our days." (Luke 1:68-75) Step by step, day by day, the Lord Jesus has been showing me what these 3 passages truly mean. I've been learning about the freedom I have in Jesus Christ-- to Love Him, and the people He has created. Let it be so. Be so very, very blessed. I love all of you.

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