I never thought I would be here. And honestly, it sucks.
Sunday, I felt out of control. Dominated by the delusional thought that I would be dead soon, creating huge amounts of fear and panic. I haven’t felt so crazy since I went to the psych ward 5 years ago.
My family knows all about it. I am getting a doctor’s help, and no longer believe I am dying soon. But it has seemingly derailed many of my plans.
But I know that Jesus will come through. He already has. I praise Him for caring for me, for delivering me from my fears. He is so good, even when everything around me feels unfamiliar and disappointing.
He will carry me through. He promised.
“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
(Isaiah 46:4, NIV)
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